This post is pretty personal- but I wanted to share it anyway!
Wow- what an inspiring weekend. The last couple of weeks have rejuvenated my testimony in the Gospel of Jesus Christ - with being with two who went the temple for the first time, and listening to general conference. It is between Sunday sessions, and I feel like I need to sit down and write my feelings. I feel like I had been in a spiritual rut- going about my daily life, doing mostly what I should, but forgetting to completely dedicate my life to following Christ. Not that I need to change what I do every day in general, but changing my attitude and thoughts to center around Christ. This will affect how I love and teach my children and my own emotional well being. I now feel so full of love and joy for the life I live and all that I have, especially the love of my Heavenly Father and the Savior. I have no doubt in my mind that the Prophet, Thomas S Monson is called of God. I want to do as he counseled this morning- and have my home be a "Heaven on Earth". When I look around at our young family and our house, though we aren't perfect- I feel that we truly do have Heaven on Earth here in out little home. We may not have new (or even socially acceptable) cars, the nicest clothes, or grass in our backyard - - but I feel soooo happy with my life and all that we have! Our little stewardship gives me such joy- we have all the necessities of life and much more. Most of all, there is an undeniable love in our home- even though we aren't perfect and aren't perfectly nice to each other all the time- there is no doubt that we love each other. The other day I went to the Elementary school to help- and as I left Cynthia shouted out- "Bye mom, I love you!!" We say this to each other every time we part ways, so although it did warm my heart as it always does, I didn't think that much of it. Another parent was nearby and she said- isn't it wonderful when they say that! It made me realize how grateful I am that we do express love often to each other- - I want so much for my children to know how deeply I truly love them, despite my weaknesses as a parent! Even little Lillian is starting to say it and it is inexpressible how much joy that brings. I also truly enjoy a marriage that is becoming harder and harder to find in the world. Jon is truly still the love of my life- we have built a wonderful and close life together for the last 10 ½ years. I know it is because we have strived to live a virtuous life that we have this kind of wonderful relationship. Being in the medical field, Jon has seen how unusual it is for a couple like us to exist- where we each have only ever been intimate with one person- each other- and only in marriage. I am so grateful for the teachings of the gospel when I was a youth!!! The most wonderful thing about the Gospel is the atoning blood of Jesus Christ - - so even though we aren't perfect- we can strive for it and the Atonement makes us the difference.
Some of my other favorite talks so far were about Hope in adversity, simplifying to relieve stress, and unity in the gospel in our homes and wards (this made me think of the friendships I have shared in my life and the unity of purpose and love we shared). There still is the afternoon session to go- and I am so grateful that I have taken the time to really listen this time. It seems that I usually miss a session or two (especially Saturday) and plan to watch it or read it later, but never quite get around to all of it. I am truly realizing what I was missing and hope to do better in the future- because the renewed happiness gained this weekend is too precious to be lost.
6 comments:
Your post almost brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing this. I was only able to watch the afternoon session today and that being w/a fussy 3 mo old and a rambunctious 2 yr old. I did hear a talk on eternal marriage. The others are kinda fuzzy.
You are such a sweet person and friend. Thank you.
I was able to enjoy all the conference talks. I was very touched by President Monsons Sunday morning address. I do believe he gave that talk just for me. It was a very uplifting conference.
What a wonderful post! Thanks for sharing.
Devon loved talking to Marcus the other night. He's been missing Sunnyside a lot, so I know it lifted his spirits to talk to an old friend. I had no idea they talked so long! It was so cute.
Thank you for your testimony, we love you Becky! Conference weekend was also special for us. We didn't miss any sessions (except Priesthood). I had a special talk with my kids about pitching our tents towards the prophet (we pitched kiddo tents in the den). I made up lots of booklets, worksheets & coloring pages. We played games to keep the kids interested (like having them listen for certain words, like all the names for Jesus Christ) I tried really hard to make it special for them, we even ate special food. Of course, it was special for me too! I came away with a greater determination to improve parts of my life that need it, and be a better mom. I also walked away with a greater appreciation of my family and kids. I can't wait for the next Ensign so I can read it!!
I, too, wanted to say thank you for your testimony. I really enjoy reading your blog. You have a way to express your soul well and your friends sound very wonderful too.
I did enjoy this conference too. Ever since President Monson was called to be a prophet, he got an aura of a prophet and he fit into his calling mignificently. I also enjoyed his biography video between the sessions. We are so blessed to have him as our prophet.
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