Some news . . .

After what seems like a long time of trying (though I feel super blessed because I know many have a much harder time than me), I am expecting another child! We JUST found out a few days ago and I am soooo excited. I am due sometime in October. Even though I am barely pregnant, I wanted to get the news out there because that little life inside me is already so precious. Even if something does happen to the pregnancy, I would want all of you to know what I am going through anyway. I am just starting to feel a bit queasy and pretty tired, but so far not too bad (though that will probably get worse over the next month). To be honest, I am also a bit scared because Jon has a string of really hard rotations where he will have extremely limited time at home, and a lot of stress until towards the end of May. The beginnings of my pregnancies are when I feel the worst (except that dreaded last month) - - so I am sometimes worried that I will not be able to be the strength at home that I need to be, for Jon, myself and our children. I had Jon give me a blessing that he and I will have the strength that we need. I have faith that the Lord will help me, and He already has. I am sooo happy and feel sooo ready to have another baby. Even though I am physically tired, I feel an incredible amount of emotional strength, that truly is a gift from God - - I feel like I could take on the world. I feel like I am standing at the base of a huge mountain that I have to climb- and instead of dreading the climb, I am ready to RUN up the mountain. I know it sounds a bit dramatic, because it's not like I am the only one who goes through stuff like this - - but for me it is important. I rely on Jon so much for emotional support- he is so much a part of my every day life, and somehow I know that despite the rigors of his training, he will be able to be there just enough for me. The rest will be divine help. I am so grateful for Jon's love for me, and all he does for me. I can't imagine life without him because our life together has been so incredibly rich. Maybe that is why it is hard when he can't be home as much! I know that his training is incredibly important and his career is the RIGHT thing for him and our family- so I know I will have the strenght to support him the way I need to, even while pregnant. I know with all my heart that this is the right time for our family to grow, and we are ready. I am so grateful and so happy!